Recurrent pregnancy loss is being everyone's miscarriage support friend but no one's mom friend.

When you’ve experienced 6 losses, you become everyone’s go-to miscarriage support friend. And I love that for me (honestly), I love that I have friends who have turned to me when they have been at their lowest. I love that I could walk them through what to expect when you are no longer expecting. That I could be open and honest about loss and recovery, the procedures, the tests, and the pain. I have felt a great sense of purpose, being able to really understand what they are going through, knowing that when I did, I felt like I had no one. But no one prepares you for the fact that most of them will go on to have healthy pregnancies and babies. Your friends that you met down in the trenches of infertility and loss will climb out with another pregnancy. Most will never experience more than one miscarriage in their lives. They will go on to have a healthy baby, and then they will join The Moms Club. 

It’s a club that I will likely never get to be a part of. It’s a loss that I mourn regularly. No one can prepare you for this part of infertility. For the feeling of being left behind. The activities and conversations that I will never get to be a part of. For the friendships that form in motherhood, the ones that go on and grow on without you, for the circles that you no longer fit into. Because having a baby and becoming a mom is the only way into The Moms Club.